9:08 PM | 10-16-08
I know it's been awhile, too long actually. I*m usually better at this and I usually update, but this summer hit me with some pretty harsh and frequent twists and turns, and now, I am picking up the pieces of the aftermath. It is the night before my birthday and already I feel like I have been punched in the stomach repeatedly. I have lost that feeling to smile and i have lost my breath more than once this past month. The freaquent blows to my delicate interface have made this upcomming birthday almost unbearable. A break up, yet again, with brandon, after so much change, or so i thought. However in the end, nothing changed...nothing at all. So here I am...on the eve before my 26th birthday...tomorrow I will leave for Chicago to get away and be with friends. Unexpected, considering i had flight and hotel arrangements to be in Kentucky, and with Brandon, but as all things do, my plans changed...and we are no more. Long story. I plan on going into deatil and more aout some summer memories, but not tonight. its just not the time and I just dont have the energy or will. stay tuned. more to come. promise.