i dunno anymore.
12:16 PM | 10-23-05
I guess there*s some things I probably shouldnt say in here...I do anyways. I don*t know what the hell I am doing. I feel I have put so much into something only to be living it in another world. I feel like such an idiot. To think, I have something and I am trying so hard to make it into something,that really isn*t there. I did something I prolly shouldn*t have. I*m sorry I did now, but I know the truth now. Now I see why people don*t get married...and refuse to be in a relationship. It isn*t because they are crazy, not because they are too busy in their lives. It*s because they have already learned what we are all trying to figure out. There are people in the world who should not be in a relationship....I think I am dating one currently. The secrets are all hidden and even though you may not want to see them, or find out, you eventually do. I just dont know what I am doing anymore. I am trying so hard to be strong and not act like I know...but I do. Maybe i should just be quiet...and go on pretending I do not know. Foll myself into believing I have changed someone into someone they aren*t.