10:33 PM | 07-15-04
Having a boyfriend causes drama, living with yours, causes even more. When you*re single, you miss the affection...and forget about the drama. I love Brandon....TONZ.....and soemtimes you care about someone soooo much it*s hard to think how your life would be without them. I get scared thinking about that....and i am even more concerned that I am THAT much depended on him. Then I have think....isnt that the way its supposed to be??? When you are seriously involved with a person....don*t you depend on eachother?? You expect things...you trust in them. And the thought of losing it all makes a person sick. Whch is how I felt today. There*s SOOOO much I could lose...and yet we still are stubborn...we still fight, we stillsay things we shouldnt say. It*s liek gambling...how far can we go before the other person busts?? And if they never do...does that means you were meant to be??? Something to think about i guess.
Anyway Brandon and I took some time apart today...4 hours....some screaming and throwing..a broken clock, some blood and tears...and some new cocoa B&B lotion later, we made up *Smilez* Sometimes it takes a lil time to work through it....wether it*s a new outfit your boyfriend bought for you, lotion...or some sweet kisses...eventually you work through it...and for the times you dont....sometimes you*re better off.....