i know
6:48 PM | 04-16-04
I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can't, because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most......
Ever know what you*re doing at the present time is so wrong...you can*t even look at yourself....you cant respect what you*re doing...and it*s impossible to love yourself? I feel so bad....for everything i have done since augsust. I feel like when I am happy, I am lying to myself...and I*m not happy for the right reasons...it*s all lies...it*s all deception. Everytime I am happy it*s at someone else*s expence. I am hurting someone else to make myself happy. I feel so weird inside....the words that i hear just tear me apart and i feel like I just can*t get away...I can*t get out alive...and I can*t leave without being hurt.
*sigh*
On a a brighter note, I*m going to VEGAS August 6th for Erika* B*Day! haha...should be madcrazyfun! :) WElp I*m off to the movies....yippeee....