2:40 PM | 01-26-04
24 days...24 days and I*m goin in!!! Surgery is freakin me out, I can*t stop thinking about it, altering your body permanantly is a huge decision, and one i have decided to go with, I*m just afraid, I dont want to die, and I realy dont wanna die and have everyone know I died in a breast reduction proceedure. DAMN....I just hope they dont kill me with an overdose of morphine or something retarded liek that. I*m just nervous, and ofcourse they show all the "True Life" episodes on MTV about pastic surgery....make it a lil worse why dont cha! Anyway, It*s national sex day today...haha...Brandon slept over last night *smilez* we stayed up talking and drinking till like 5AM....it was nice just drinking and laughing and talking. I luv spending time with him, just because in soooo many ways we are alike...weird. This morning we went to breakfast with blake and now I*m home contimplating cleaning the basement. Woo....well I better go...peace out~!