early mornin tanning
9:58 AM | 09-26-03
Once my lover
Now my friend
What a cruel thing
To pretend
What a cunning way
To condescend
Once my lover and
Now my friend
Oh, you creep up
Like the clouds
And you set my soul at ease
Then you let
Your love abound
And you bring me
To my knees
Oh, it's evil, babe
The way you let
Your grace enrapture me
When will you know
I'd be insane
To ever let that
Dirty game recapture me
You made me
A shadowboxer, baby
I wanna be ready
For what you do
I've been swinging
All around me
'Cause I don't know
When you're gonna
Make your move
Oh, your gaze
Is dangerous
And you fill your
Space so sweet
If I let you
Get too close
You'll set your
Spell on me
So darlin'
I just wanna say
Just in case
I don't come through
I was on to every play
I just wanted you
But, oh, it's so evil
My love
The way you've no
Reverence to my concern
So I'll be sure to
Stay wary of you, love
To save the pain of
Once my flame and
Twice my burn
~*~Fiona Apple~*~
It says it all, and I*ve said it before, and I*ll say it again. I luv Fiona Apple. Her music is so deep. It*s early. I got up at 8AM and went tanning, the guy and the tanning place, who i have frequent chit chats with, asked me why the hell i was up so early. I told him becuase I coulsnt sleep and that I was leaving fo WI to see one of my buddies in WI. He immediatly implied, oh, so your boyfriend. I said oh gawd no, cuz he really isn*t. He said...guys can never be just friends. Then I thought about the movie "When Harry met Sally" You know that conversation they have in that movie about how when guys and girls are friends, it can never work cuz all you think about is having sec with them? Now I wonder, is this true? Are ALL my relationships with men revoled around this? Could they honestly be thinking about having sex with me?? NEVER!! I know I have guy friends who I would never in a thousand years have sex with them. I dunno, confuses the hell outta me. maybe it*s only true for guys, but that would make them pretty damn horny...oh yah thats right most guys are~!! *lol* Why in hell do friendships have to revolve around sex. I will never know. Sometimes there are greater things in a friendship. I just don*t get how friends can have sex and then not want a relationship. THAT whole incidence would make me so freakin psycho...holy hell. This is why I don*t want to put myself in that position anytime soon. Good idea, I know. BAD was supposed to call me this morning so we could hang out, but, i doubt he will, his parents being here and everything. I don*t think he knows I am going outta town, kinda feel bad, but if he doesnt call, well....is loss right? Guys are messed up. And when they*re messed up they make everything around them mixed up and confusing. I wonder sometimes if anything is ever going to be concrete, or atleast stay true for more than a month. It seems like when I think about before, like 2 years ago, alot more things made sence, I knew where I was going, what i had to do to get there, and who would be with me. Now, I don*t have a fuhking clue. Proves....nothing lasts forever. It*s the sh*t afterwards that makes is crazy and confused. well...gotta go pack....slink around the house...and listen to fionna :*)
peace out.... *MUAH*