11:56 PM | 04-28-03
Well, I saved packing up my room for last. You know why. I cried for awhile, thinking about all the good times I had in this house. There were bad, but there were soe awfully good times. If these walls could talk. I can hear all of laughing sometimes. Jason being loud and making weird noises, Sam & I giggling, and people comming in and out slamming the door. It*s deffinetly been an experience to say the very least. My first house. Living on my own. I learned alot. And while I think in this experience I have lost more than I gained I think it taught me alot about being on my own and being independent. Packing my things yet again reminds me of last year. I must of listened to Dave Mathews Band "Say goodbye" a thousand times. Thinking of seeing Jason again, oving bac home, saying goodbye to my friends, and leaving my first year of college and my beloved dorm room. My gaw, how things have changed. I have no boyfriend, I live in a house, and well the dorms seem like a non exsistant past time. But I will miss my friends. When I*m alone, I like it, but being with friends is like something i can*t get enough of. I am so lucky to have the friends and family that I do. They are all umbelievable. I think this is why god wants me to be single and independent right now, sorry to get religous. But having this time apart has really made me aware of my life and its possibilities and what I have to offer to the world. Moving is gonna be tough, when i pull out of the driveway for the last time at 11:59 on the 30th I*m going to take a long breath in and let it out, along with the memories inside of me. Sure I*ll always have them in my heart, but I want to let them go a lil, I am hangin on too tightly. I will write more later...bye!