serendipity
10:33 PM | 04-22-03
It*s weird. How when you don*t want to think about someone or something,no matter what you do, something, and frequently, reminds you of them/it. I walked into my house today after photography and my house smelled of guys cologne. I miss that smell. I used to smell it all the time. Then i smelt my NMU sweatshirt and it smelt exactly like my X*s clothes used to. I remember when Jason left his clothes at my house, after broke up.I refused to return them to him as he refused to give any of my clothes back. I slept with his sweatshirt for a month after that. I still sleep with a pillow next to my back,so it feels as if someone is lying next to me. I dunno what*s up with me today. I*m watching Serendipity. Great movie. Then I rememeber who I saw it with. My dreaded ex. I need to move on, but it*s just such a risk and such a chance of rejection. *sigh* I don*t know if I would happier like this or to be in love and constantly wondering when it would all end. hmmmm
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*MUAH*