12:55:12 | 2000-05-22
"As we go on, we'll remember all the times we had together, and as our lives change from whatever, we will still be friends forever." Todd just wrote me his last e-mail from Houghton High School...he is graduating the 28th of this month. Sadly, I cannot be there because Hancock's graduation is the same day. I might have metioned this before but I can't remember. Oh well...anyway todd is done with werk this comming saturday....I don't know how I will have courage to finally let him go. I will miss him so much....he was the one sooooo many times that just somehow made life bedder or easier. I remember just being so happy...to werk! And the only reason...the only one at all was becuz todd was werking. That was all I needed. I guess I just have to get over he fact that todd and me are just friends...good friends...but just friends. And as I grow up I know I'll always remember him...for who he is..and his great personality. Someday I hope he'll remember me, and maybe it won't be much, maybe he won't remember all the great memories we had but I just hope he can say he has a friend...always...here...in me. I keep thinking times will never change, keep on thinkin things will always be the same...when he leaves this year he won't come back, no more hangin out becuz we're on a different track. And after this...I have to ask myself...will I be the same? I will miss this...and I'll miss talking about this everyday and wondering what todd is doin...but I have, I must go on...and forget this....no...not forget....never forget...but move past it. i will...and I'll smile & cry thru each day.